Everywhere Out of Place

by Jason Howell

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Daniel Warren Jason's fearless exploration and revelation of himself brings out my own self-searching. His openness toward faith, hope, and love are endearing, yet challenge my own understanding. Huge shout out to Damon Moon at The Cottage in Atlanta! This album is excellently written, performed, and structured. Favorite track: Faithful.
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released May 28, 2013

Jason Howell - songs, lyrics, vocals, guitars, bass, xylophone, whistle

Damon Moon - percussion, organ, piano, wurlitzer, vocals, bass, guitars

Ben Deaton - violin

All bird chirps, chair creaks, throat clearing, cat meows, passing traffic, leaves rustling compliments of The Cottage.

Damon Moon recorded, mixed, produced, labored and all around made this album.

Recorded in Atlanta, Georgia at The Cottage. (February - March 2013)

Album artwork by Luke Shuman

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Track Name: Nineveh
like Jonah
i ran from your lovingkindness
and found myself scorched by the sun
rather than your severities
i find your mercies hard to bare

it doesn't make sense
sin and repent and all is well
the flesh and bone i am
i want penance
i want to burn in hell
you say you're forgiven
but i have not forgotten
just where i've been
clemency to a contrite heart
is harder to receive than give

foolish men
subvert their ways
and their hearts rage against the Lord
rather than take you
at your word
i'll base my verdict on what i deserve

like Jonah
i ran from your love
but even in the belly of a beast
where could i go?
like Nineveh
i stood condemned
if not for your great love and mercy
where would i be?
Track Name: The Cobweb Song
there are cobwebs in my house
that only i can see.
sometimes i think i weave them myself
and blame spiders
for their intricacies.
regrets settle like dust
in a house left unkept.
oblivious to what the past would weigh
i let it bury everything.

and i'll never know
what could have been
there are memories i wish i made.
i want you to know
what you mean to me
i won't let my regrets speak for me.

i wish this house was better lit.
i wish that i could see myself.
i miss mirrors in the eyes of friends
they tell truth without a single sound.

and i'll never know
what could have been
there are memories i wish i made
i want you to know
what you mean to me
i won't let my regrets speak for me.

and you never knew
because i couldn't speak
of opportunities i let escape
i wish you could know
what you mean to me
i won't let my regrets speak for me.
Track Name: A Worthy Prize
how long must i lay here
pretending to be at peace?
while on the surface i seem steady
underneathe i stumble for the beat
and the music was so charming
that we tried to sing along
and the campfire that burnt so lively
hasn't breathed since you've been gone

how long must i tell myself
love with always find a way?
as i curse the very God who's so called love
gave His only Son away
i wish i could have been there
when they hung you on a tree
for i'd know without a doubt
the blood you shed was love for me

and i don't know what to say
words never mattered anyway
and i don't know what to say
did words ever matter anyway?

if i played you a sad song
would you cry or wipe my tears?
think of me when you feel sorrow
for it was i who whispered it to your ears
and i told her that i loved her
as she walked away from me
just like Jesus as He closed his eyes
was it too late to believe?

and i don't know what to say
words never mattered anyway
and i don't know what to say
did words ever matter anyway?

i want to believe so badly
but i can't seem to let go
i want to believe so badly
but i lost faith tears ago
i want to believe so badly
that it holds me when i sleep
i want to believe so badly
that you'd love a wretch like me

i know you don't like flowers
but that's all he had on the corner street
and i know you don't like words
but that's all i have if you've no faith in me
a disappointing birthday thrown
to celebrate death's approach
there was a clown with nails in His steady wrists
and candles that held a single wish
so i asked Him for a new soul
and He took it as a joke
He said "this trick is tough but if you wait long enough
i'll pull a worthy prize out of my throat."

and i don't know what to say
words never mattered anyway
and i don't know what to say
did words ever matter anyway?
Track Name: Cathy
cathy
put your seat belt on
we're going for a drive
we've got a couple of hours
before morning comes
that should give us plenty of time

it doesn't matter if you love me
it doesn't matter where we go

we'll just drive

cathy
i'm not a desperate man
i could just use some company
i know you've been hurt before
you've been hurt the same as me

we don't have to talk about it
you don't have to say a word

i know you hardly know me
many of my friends can say the same
there's something to be said
for those of us who can stand to wait

we don't have to find all the answers
we don't have to drag this out
we can let the music swallow
our troubles and the road
and feel free to sing aloud

when we drive
Track Name: Faithful
is it well within my grasp?
i've got the heart
but not the act
i grow weary of a cup never full
like i'm sure you grow tired
of me being ungrateful

i want to be faithful
i want to be true
don't want to be divided
between what i want
and what i do

amazing grace, how sweet the sound
but if that's all it is
i don't want to be found
but there's something more to it
i just can't figure out
and no matter how i try
i just can't get around

i want to be faithful
i want to be true
don't want to be divided
between what i want
and what i do
Track Name: Calendars
time waits for no one
yet it never moves fast enough

slow the hands of a clock
where they land is never where you want

time escapes when you need it the most
through a door kept ajar by my ghosts

if i stare at the calendar long enough
it'll move to a more convenient month

if i stare
if i stare at the calendar
Track Name: Harvest
one man waters and another man sows
but the increase comes from God alone
unless a seed dies it cannot grow
and by fire will it's works be shown

create in me that good soil
produce a crop a hundred fold
O to be your harvest

as good as damned is a tree that bares no fruit
unfaithful is the bride that strays
as subtle as a fox the vine is ruined
thanks be to Christ who overcame

create in me that good soil
produce a crop a hundred fold
O to be your harvest

God will frustrate the wisest of men
from the same stone give life or death
the tree that bore the greatest curse
was the one that raised me from my hearse

create in me that good soil
produce a crop a hundred fold
O to be your harvest

O to be your harvest
Track Name: Anyone but You
from your ears
to your toes
every detail of you
holds my attention
every subtlety
demands that i listen
to your every sigh

there's a purity you own
it goes with every dress
you wear i stare
only because i
have never known
such hope
and i've never
felt so at home

perfectly composed
even when you are a mess
darlin' you know
who i am when i forget

long before
we were lovers
we were friends
your door
was as far as i would
dare to venture
and i'd drive home singing praise

standing on your tiptoes
painted autumn
like the leaves
out your window
you were reaching for
some disregarding dish
like one day
i hoped you'd reach for me

perfectly composed
even when you are a mess
darlin' i know
who you are when you forget

don't be anyone but you
Track Name: Strays
guilty as i am, i forget all too easily
insatiable are the eyes of man
when everything i see i think i need
peaceful as a river, i'm the first the throw a stone
and i'll stop what i am doing for a tragedy

grateful as i am, i forget all too easily
a feast enjoyed with friends
when i'm left alone with plates to clean
youthful as a boy, i grow older with each day
and look to the time i've lost rather than what remains

we're infinite souls stuck in earthen cages
we gave up the garden but demand our rights
we're more precious than gold but we're sold for a good time
we're playing with fire and surprised by the light

forgiven as i am, i forget all too easily
the goodness of the Lord
when the fruit i bare is not holy seed
humbled as i am, still prideful as i was
i love my neighbors best when they're away

we're infinite souls stuck in earthen cages
we gave up the garden but demand our rights
we're more precious than gold but we're sold for a good time
we're playing with fire and surprised by the light

faithful as i am, i'm as fickle as the tide
i ebb and flow my way upon your shore
gentle like my father but still not half the man
i'm quick to quit what he taught me when it counts

we're strays in the alley when our seats at the banquet
entrusted with the kingdom but we're burying our wages
we're dressed in holy garments but we're playing in the muck
true love coursing in our veins and we're strung out on drugs
we're infinite souls stuck in earthen cages
we're strays scrammin' for scraps when a feast is awaitin'
we're more precious than gold but we're sold for a good time
we're asking for your fire but denying the light

yea we're asking for fire
Track Name: Memphis
who in their right mind would buy a lie?
easiest said when broke
as long as i've got something to hide
i never want to lose control
i've been around twenty something years
what the hell do i know?

i miss the sound of your voice
and the love that you bestowed
upon my shame and above my reach
but i'm too proud to let you know
was i wrong when i said
i couldn't give you anymore?

and i don't want to be here anymore
i'm a long long way from home.

who in their right mind would buy a lie?
easiest said when broke
how long will i be content
trading love for a peep show?
how many miles must i walk
till i realize i can let it go?